Believer

believer.



I never considered myself to be a believer in "soul mates"...

ya know, the idea that there was only one person out there who you were meant to be with.

& i don't know if love at first sight is scientifically possible. 

I also don't know if another person can really "complete" another person...


or what "unconditional love" really means...




but here is what I do know.





i know that ever since i met you, I'm able to dive into my own soul at such great depths...

depths that allow me to feel a closeness that far exceeds anything physical.

& I don't remember if I fell in love with you the very first time I laid eyes on you...

mostly because it's hard for me to fathom that there was ever a time in my life that every detail of you wasn’t on constant replay in my mind.... but my eyes seem to have forgotten what my world looks like before you were in it.

I also never thought I could be in love with someone's else mind...

and I never thought I would trust someone enough to love them without limits, guards, or walls, and willingly let them explore every corner of my spirit.

& I had no idea it was possible that someone could simply wrap up my every worry and me in their embrace, lay by my side and without saying a word, make those worries fade from my mind. Then, with that same embrace, completely refill my heart and my mind with a quiet and reassuring peace that everything was really going to be OK.

I also never thought I would feel so deeply connected to someone that I would feel a physical hurt when they were ill... that I would enjoy giving up sleep, time, and half of my chipotle salad... or that I would get teary eyed while driving alone in my car because of the overwhelming feeling of gratitude that our paths even crossed in the first place...

and if you would have told me ...

that another human would come into my life and make me feel like a entirely new person just by bringing out my true and never-before-seen potential..... and that by helping me identify my strengths and gifts they could encourage me to mold my hobbies and interests into things that I could have only dreamed about.. what I had been searching for in solitude my whole life.

& that just by experiencing their existence, it would cause a phenomenon in my heart that could pump positivity and passion straight through my veins and create fearless emotions and alter my logical thinking ....

or that someone could make me feel whole.... and do it in a way without ever making me feel like I was anything less than complete in the first place...

or that someone could heal my every insecurity with just the simple touch of their hand...

or that they could pin-point exactly how i'm feeling, no matter how hard I tried to hide it or bottle it up, just by observing the subtle movements of my eyes...

or that another person could possibly love me so intensely and so unconditionally that I could physically feel it strike my bones whenever our eyes lock momentarily...


I don't know if I would have believed you...



because those are the kind of things people hope for...

people silently pray in their heart for.

but assume that those things only happen to other people in songs and movies.




but then it actually happens....

to you.



& you don't know what else to do besides become a believer.


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